Children have this innocence that we can only dream of
Children have this innocence that we can only dream of. The world will rob them of this in time and it will never return. In the sweetest voice earlier today, my two year old daughter asked me “daddy, where’s my mommy?” How do I respond to this, she was about a year old when everything happenend. I’m sure she has no recollection of that night since she was asleep and stayed asleep throughout the whole fight, when I ended up telling my wife to go (all she wanted were the keys to the car, so I gave them to her). We haven’t seen her since, I talked to her once a few months later and told her I still loved her and she told me to “f*** off” so that was the end of it. I didn’t answer the question when my daughter asked me today, before I could say anything…..I don’t know how long I was silent thinking about the ’right’ answer, when my son told her “mom is at the doctor to get better before she comes back”. Now I’m stuck with either letting it go or shattering his dreams of her returning, in the eyes of a four year old, he only recalls the good things. Sometimes when he acts up and gets punished he tells me he wants me to go away and then his mom can raise him. He asked me once a few months ago where she was and my answer was “I don’t know”. Just an honest answer because she dissappeared again and I have no idea where she is. It’s an odd feeling knowing that she knows where we are but dissappeared again, only leaving me wondering when or if I will ever hear from her again. So back to the innoence of children, do I tell them the whole truth, or do I leave them with that wonderful hope in their mind that she may return. If I shatter their dream now, what will be their reaction, how will it affect them in the future, and if I leave them with the hope will they resent me for not telling them the whole truth. My daughter made it all better later in the day when she told me “daddy, you’re my mommy”. It all became clear…
