Exactly 8 weeks ago, my best friend and i, kissed
Out of my high school group, if anyone ever asked who was the most straight of all of us, everyone would always point to me. Everyone else either had experimented with the opposite gender, or wanted to. Females never caught my attention. I never found them attractive. I never saw myself doing anything, not even kissing, with another female. Even when we would throw parties, and i would get wasted and got a bit on the wild side, not once did i attempt or even got close to doing anything with another female. Exactly 8 weeks ago, my best friend and i, kissed. Since that day, we’ve been “together”. I haven’t told anyone, because i’m afraid everyone will change how they perceive me. One thing i know for a fact, i have NEVER been this happy. This girl knows everything about me. She accepts my every flaw, and loves me, and cares for me. We were close before, but now, we’re much more than what we were before. five minutes spent with her, make my day. I can’t help but smile when i’m with her. I have trust issues that go way back to my childhood. I was raped constantly for over a year by my father. I have had a few boyfriends, but i never felt nearly as comfortable as i feel around her. I have never trusted anyone the way i trust her. I lay in bed with her, and when i look into her eyes i can SEE that she loves me. She looks at me and i see that she feels lucky to have me. She often reassures me that i mean the world to her. She tells me she wouldn’t change me for anything. She lets me know how much i mean to her. And for the first time ever, i believe. I believe everything she tells me. I love her unconditionally. I don’t care if we can’t tell our families because they won’t accept it. I don’t care about any of that. As long as i’m with her, i’m happy.
